and god daaaaamn am I glad to see it go. It has surely been amongst the worse of my life, which really says something about how comparatively easy I have had it overall, but still. Our experiences are ours alone and if things are rough, things are rough.
I will be starting some new jobs this year: Substitute teaching at a new district and working part-time on a farm close by. The farm job combines teaching and animal/plant stuff, so that is going to be rad. I wanted to do this to put my self in a more positive place. I do not “hate everything” as I have often be accused of, I just dislike stupid people and their stupid people doings immensely, but focusing on this so much is truly unproductive. By working there, I hope to become the positive person I once was.
And since you apparently still follow me, I need to apologize…I don’t hope you are “not okay.” I hope you are well, and I miss you, but do not need you. The fall was our special time, and it will certainly be difficult without you, but we are both better off. I don’t know if we’ll ever speak to one another again, so if we don’t, know that I am okay, and that I hope you are too.
You love Family Guy. When in a new city you opt for Taco Bell over the local taco spot, no matter how highly it comes recommended, because you “like to know what you’re getting.” You wear $11 sunglasses. You think longboards are “fucking lame” but can’t explain why skating a shorter piece of wood is any less clowny. You engage in political arguments on Facebook.
"[On] May 2, 1967, 30 fully armed members of the Black Panther Party for Self-Defense and their supporters were in the California State Capitol at Sacramento, California, protesting the infamous Mulford Act. The bill on its face was aimed at banning a U.S. citizen’s right to carry loaded weapons in public, so long as the weapons were “registered, not concealed, and not pointed in a threatening manner.”
In actuality the Mulford Act – or “the Panther Bill,” as it was tagged by the media – was designed to end the BPP Police Patrols that were organized against police brutality in the Afrikan community; as it was the Panther Party’s belief that “armed citizen patrols and the arming of the citizenry as guaranteed by the Constitution were the most effective deterrents to excessive use of police force.”
The alarmed and instantaneous reaction to the fully armed BPP in Sacramento further confirmed this, and then Gov. Ronald Reagan’s signing of the bill into law catapulted the Black Panther Party for Self-Defense into national prominence.
Three months prior to this, in March 1967, the U.S. Federal Bureau of Investigation (FBI) had begun an “internal security” investigation of Huey Newton, prompting then FBI Director J. Edgar Hoover to announce, on Sept. 8, 1968, that the BPP was considered to be “the greatest threat to the internal security of the country.” At the time, the Black Panther Party was barely known outside of Oakland, Calif.
Despite these dire pronouncements, BPP Deputy Minister of Defense for Southern California Alprentice “Bunchy” Carter organized the Southern California branch of the BPP, with a branch office at Central Avenue and 43rd in January 1968, and January 1969 saw the BPP Free Breakfast for Children Program (FBCP) firmly under way at St. Augustine’s Church in Oakland. At that point, membership of the BPP was peaking at 10,000 members within the continental U.S. alone, and circulation of the Black Panther Newspaper had hit 139,000 by 1970.
Between 1967 and 1969, the Black Panther Party for Self Defense not only grew in local, national and international stature, they forged unity with other oppressed people and inspired the formation of the 12- and 13-point political platforms of the Brown Beret, I Wor Kuen and Young Lords political organizations.
By 1980, the Black Panther Party for Self Defense was no more, due to the depredations of FBI Director J. Edgar Hoover’s extensive program – COINTELPRO – of surveillance, infiltration, perjury, disruption, misdirection, police harassment and assassinations of party members within U.S. borders that were designed to make the political criminal.”
Solid reminder that gun control in America usually, if not always, has extremely racist roots an undertones, as well as that mainstream political parties flip flop and do whatever’s in their own best interest at the time
Seeking acceptance from others. Do what you do because you love it not because you want anyone to acknowledge it. I need to keep reminding myself of that.